I come from a place where a statement like this ruled my world. I know for a fact now that this is true. I believe that I do not have “it” in me to be. I have spent my entire life with a reach for acceptance. I have yearned for acceptance from people. At times I wanted to have “the status”. That status has changed overtime and in some very small moments I was there. In those times I was seeking the wrong status and the moments were unfulfilling.
I have been fighting a funk recently. Feeling that things have been stolen from me. Those things were joy, good times and a connection to some people that I believe had potential. It still shocks me that a few negative things can drag down some things that had possibilities that I could only dream of. That is satan’s foothold. The fact that I mentioned earlier is that God built us as relational beings. I have sin in my life so I use this need for a relationship and replace it with acceptance. Instead of leaning on the tools that I believe in to allow me to sit at the throne of my King, my foggy mind is tempted to seek those things elsewhere. Acceptance from people that are also sinners. People that may never be able to deliver what I am seeking. I truly wish that I was a better writer so I could make this more clear. There I go again seeking the acceptance from you (the reader). It is why we blog right?
I saw Social Media tonight and it dripped with this same theory. Maybe not with the same belief system but from the same type of person. A sinner. I really enjoyed the movie and it has shown me the light at the end of this tunnel of funk. The light is actual the thing that I need. I need the spirit of that light to dwell in me and shine. That is the only true acceptance that I need.
I, in no way, have this all figured out. I am glad that I can get this out of my head and into my online journal.
Here is a great take on the movie as well http://www.thefilmforum.net/
